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For those of you that may not have followed the original caring bridge site, I decided to post a snippet of the journal entry that led to the "dontsavetheperfume" title for this blog full of ramblings. This is an excerpt from an entry originally written in mid-November.

I feel compelled to share a couple of things I've been thinking about lately. Just some realizations I've had that I wish I'd had years ago. Anywho... (1) Don't save perfume / cologne for a special occasion or social funtion filled with people I don't actually care about and won't see again. Rather, realize that every day with a loved one is special and worthy of perfume. After all, he's the one I want to impress. (2) Don't dress up for work and look like a slob on the weekends. Not to say I don't still stay in PJs for a while Saturday morning. But as I have the opportunity to wear jeans and T-shirts more often, I find myself wanting to wear some of Nathan's favorite things he enjoys seeing me in, whether dressy or casual.
It seems trite, but I want to continue to give Nate, as John Eldridge says, a beauty to pursue. I know Nathan loves me unconditionally. I know he loves my heart, my soul, my personality, and thinks I'm beautiful inside and out. I know he feels loved by and cared for by me. But I want to walk into a room and have him think I'm pretty in that outfit. Or that I smell nice when we hug or I sit down next to him. These are trivial things I've neglected worrying about in the last several years. After all, we're married, we're not going anywhere, etc. But why should I stop trying to be worthy of the pursuit, just because he's caught me? :)